27-06-2023
In 13 days, I will be sciatica-free and hike the Camino.
Chronic pain slowly but surely structures a life.
We find community through it, and create around and from it.
To survive and then to live, we become artists.
And so, letting go of chronic pain after 10 years can feel like big loss. Like betrayal, even.
The gain we crave when we say we want to be free from pain seems impossible to dream up, because it's never been experienced before.
It is The Great Unknown.
It brings up questions of worthiness.
Letting go of chronic pain looks like having no one or nothing to rely on anymore, other than our own pure belief, blind faith, really, that there is indeed, something better for us if we take the leap.
That we do deserve whatever that is.
And that no, we won't be alone.
This made me think of Lidia Yuknavitch's TED talk, The beauty of being a misfit.
I've had chronic pain in my lower back for 10 years, and am currently recovering from a sciatica.
⛰️ In 13 days, I am hiking a portion of the Camino de Santiago de Compostela, sciatica-free.
And... I decided to get free from chronic pain... for good.
This is my real-time physical, mental and spiritual prep.
-Brune
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